WHO TOLD YOU

who told you I am alone?
who told you I am sad?
who told you I am crying?
who told you I am angry?
I am just lonely
sadness is my only friend
crying is my only shelter
angry is my only sheild

lonely tree

A: Do you see that?
B: What?
A: The tree
B: which one?
A: the lonely tree
B: there are many trees there, which one
A: standing in the packed bushes
B: then it isn't alone
A: yes it is
B: why?
A: coz even you can't see it

life

try to analyze it
try to comprehend it
try to stop asking why
but i fail
but i lose
i am defeated

???

Her smile is my pain
Her laughter is my tear
Her kindness is my hatred
Wish her gone
Wish her never existed
Wish her ... were me

It comes again

It comes again
I don't ask
not even wish
just want to stop
the time, the moment, the life
..............................
not again
not now
not ever
..............................

pretender

Another love another pain
What should I feel this
I didn’t ask I didn’t choose
Leave me if possible
Just go

Living in a denial
might be not my style
But not for this one
I admit I just did it
Nothing to regret
Just something to be laughed at
Not by others but by myself
Pathetic as it is
This is my life
A life of a pretender
who keeps on dreaming
keeps on wandering
no end
not even once…

j

“

Who are you?”
I’m a slow dying flower
“Who are you?”
I said I’M A slow dying flower
“Who are you?”
I SAID I’M a slow DYING flower
“Who are you?”
I SAID I’M A SLOW DYING FLOWER
“Who are you?”
Just a dying flower
“Who are you?”
A slow dying flower
“Who are you?”
Nothing
“Who are YOU?”
No one
“Who ARE YOU?”
Just me
“WHO ARE you?”
Me
“WHO ARE YOU?”
Fenty
“WHO ARE YOU?????????”
Not you!!!

dying

You’re stolen by night
from my own sight
You’re gone by May
Not only four-day
You’re alive
But why I am not

I thought

I thought I loved you
I thought you loved me too
I thought I needed you
I thought you needed me too
I thought I cared about you
I thought you cared about me too
I thought I showed it
I thought you showed it too
I thought this was just my thought
I thought you had no thought of it
just a thought

fls-BLUE

Finally....I am writing AGAIN

Now I know why I have never fallen in love and never will...for quite...long...time

Just like Samantha ...I love myself ...can't love someone less more ...
I love myself...can't accept for more
It's always me and forever me
selfish as I am...I am me..
me, me, and me

the new chapter of my life

I was wondering how my life would look like if I was Looking it through a short straw. Would it be smaller? or what..... silly thoughts but well still haunting me
Life has lots of shapes
define it, you will be lost
Lost not for now
but forever

life has lots of meaning
search it, you will see
who you are now
but not forever

FLS

I'M HAPPY

FOR THE FIRST TIME BEING BUSY IS ENJOYABLE :)
However, i made no paintings anymore. it's been more than 6 weeks.....
gotta find time to make a new one

culture?

culture makes this life colourful
however, those colours paint this world
white on its surface blue on its body

-fls-

no more tears for you

for some irrasional reasons i have wasted my tears... for once in my life i am being complete idiot ...

note: being idiot is better this moment than being .....